This monday, I had a depression going on, because I wasn't motivated, scared of growing up, and it was probably a build-up of many recent events too. I'm alright today, though. And it amazes me how much of a problem-solver my subconciousness is. I usually "send" problems to my subconciousness instead of having to think them through and let them be a blockage to functioning in everyday life. Usually, to be able to "send" the problems, I wipe out my brain doing something that demands all my concentration. Playing games and reading a book are two of the methods I use to do this. Then, when I have done this for long enough, I would've forgotten about the problem (Well, it's actually being processed in the deeper parts of my brain. But I won't know), and can continue working or studying.
Another, famous method to solve problems, is to sleep. In that way, your brain also shuts itself down in certain parts, and your subconciousness starts to process all the recent events you've been through. This is also the reason you dream, and the reason a lot of good ideas make it to your mind right after you've woke up.
And the last method I wanted to mention to you, is meditating. Well, I call it being in trance, because it's almost impossible to contact me, and I feel like I'm floating. This method relies on taking an active part of the problem-solving, by merging your conciousness and subconciousness to focus only on that single problem. I use this when, and only when there's some kind of emergency going on. Like when I found out my mom had been unfaithful. I sat down for hours and stared into the wall, to find out how my feelings actually were, and how I reacted.
Now, those are my ways of solving emotional problems. How are your ways of solving them?
I spent 4 hours today writing an interpretation of a norwegian short-story named "Peparkorn" (Peppercorn in english, if you didn't figure it out. Which you should have been able to). It's about a little girl who steals a gingerbread man hanging on the christmas tree. I interpreted it to be about the sins of humanity, and drew a line between this text and the fall of man, written in the bible. Maybe I went a bit too far on that one..X3 But when I write something, it's either to the tip of the edge, or way over it!
And, strangely enough, I'm watching this anime called "Casshern Sins" too. I'm a bit behind right now (only episode 10 out of 21), and it's just as weird as I remember it. Graphics are nice though...about the only thing that makes me still watch it. Oh, and the promise that there will be lots of fighting in the next few episodes xD
Wikipedia about sins:
◘The question of whether or not an act must be intentional to be sinful. ◘The idea that one's conscience should produce guilt for a conscious act of sin.
Well, what if I wouldn't feel guilt about an act of sin, unless I committed it by accident? See, if I had decided to sin (any kind of sin), I would most likely do it without hesitating, and without showing any regret of doing it afterwards. Like saying "That was my decicion, nothing to do about it now anyways". While, if I accidently happened to do something that would hurt others around me, I'd regret it alot, or imagine how it could've been done differently.
But that's just me. And don't you go thinking I wouldn't hesitate to hurt you at any time. It was merely a statement that, in real life, would've depended on a lot of things. It would take an extreme situation to make me do extreme things like that. Goes for all humans, actually. Extreme situations makes us capable of doing things they couldn't ever imagine themselves doing before that particular situation. Like the mom who lifted the entire car when her little boy was trapped underneath it. She broke her back in 3 or 5 places, can't really remember. But hey, she saved her boy! That should give a few pluses in her karma-bank to do some sins when she recovers (=
After leaving this blog untouched and forgotten for 9 months, I retrieved the password and deleted the one entry I had in it. Why? Because I'm starting from scratch - in english! That means, I'll have to update two blogs at a time. I might not update this one as often as its norwegian counterpart, but hey, trying comes before failing (chronology is my friend, and I don't disappoint friends).
What I'll do before I start writing stuff about my oh-so-exciting-life, is to introduce myself. I don't want to make an essay or something here, so I'll just create a list of random things about me:
- I like to eat potatoes. Raw. - I come from Norway. - My dog knows when I'm hungry. - I feed my dog with sausages. - Why? Because I work at a gas station. - It SUCKS working at a gas station. - Anyone else want a sausage? I can mail it. You pay for the stamps. - My hair sometimes look grey. - I sound like a paedophile on the phone. - Maybe I AM a paedophile. You'll never know until it's too late. - Just kidding, I'm a Beaver. No, THE Beaver. - I have ninjaskills. - I eat dark chocolate only. - My socks have wings on them. - So does my boxer. - I drink 0.5 litres of milk each day. - I sleep. Sometimes. IT'S TRUE! WHY DON'T YOU BELIEVE ME??? - My bed is always green. - I'm 18 years closer to death. - I own you at Chess - I have to travel for 1 hour daily to get from and to school. - During the bus rides, I listen to music. - Techno is not music. Oh, wait, that wasn't about me. - My stomach is my most important body part. - If I do something weird, it's considered expected behaviour. - My last name means "easter". - Yes, I was harassed for it earlier in my life. - I'm NOT a quitter. - Durr ^^
I'm a fan of "in medias res". That's why I'm not going to just leave this WoT (Wall O' Text, for those not too familiar with chatspeak) stand alone, and bring up a video! It isn't called "The Deserted" though..that one will come later..look forward to it...
No, it's a video named "La Revolution Des Crabes". YES! A REVOLUTION-MOVIE! Wait, what was that about.."crabes"?
